Thursday, July 20, 2017

Thoughts For Thursday

My heart hurts with all the recent news stories about people committing suicide. It seems to be an unsettling growing trend (or maybe we are just now more aware of it). And it doesn't just affect a certain group of people. Military veterans, school-aged kids, celebrities- you have people who seem to have it all that end up taking their own life. And most of the time the loved ones left behind say they had no clue anything was wrong. If your social media feed is anything like mine, people usually post a suicide prevention hotline number when a story like this goes public (usually after a celebrity takes their own life- like today with Chester Bennington). While I understand their intentions are good in posting the number, I honestly don't think that helps (but it certainly doesn't hurt by any means). 

I'm afraid the people who need that help the most aren't going to ask for it. And that scares me. It scares me that I could have a friend battling some horrible demon that no one knows about and even though they know that I'm here (as well as other people), they aren't reaching out for help. They are struggling internally with whatever is wrong. I know because I've been there. Oh, and I'm not saying I have ever had suicidal thoughts or deep bouts of depression, don't misunderstand me. I just know what it's like to need help and not ask for it. When I was seriously struggling with my PTSD and anxiety, I tried my best to be "okay". And I wasn't trying to be okay for myself, I was doing it for everyone else. I would put on a brave face so much of the time and tried to be the person I was before my carjacking happened. I would be fine when I was out with friends but then I would be a basket case when I was home and alone with my thoughts. I have a lot of friends who to this day say they had no clue I was struggling so much, they thought I was doing perfectly fine. For the record, I'm doing MUCH better now (thanks to a great support system and an awesome therapist). And I really mean it, I'm not just putting on a brave face for the sake of this post.

People only let you see the part of them that they want you to see. A lot of you reading this post may have never met me in person. I'm just someone you follow on Twitter and you decided to click on my blog link. Or maybe you have been a follower of my blog for a while. You only know what I share (and granted, sometimes I overshare, but I won't apologize for that). I wish I had answers or even suggestions on how to help those who don't want (or think they don't need) help. But I don't. All I can say to them is be honest with your family and friends. Be honest with yourself. Don't be afraid to ask for help. 

I don't know why I decided to post all of this today (and I'm sorry that it's just a bunch of rambling that doesn't flow together, I'm writing in a hurry). It's not like I think someone is going to read it and all of a sudden a light is going to go off and they realize they need help. But I feel sometimes people who are struggling internally need to hear that they aren't alone- it happens to everyone. Don't think someone has their life together just because of what they post online or what you think you know about their life. If you are struggling today, just remember this: You are amazing. You are worthy of happiness. You are loved. 


Wednesday, July 19, 2017

What I'm Loving Wednesday!

I'm loving...

My new Steve Avery Braves shirtsey. My friend Paul lives in Atlanta and found this at the new Braves ballpark, so he sent it to me. If you are new to my blog, YES, he is the Avery behind my screen name on my blog, Twitter, and Instagram.

I'm also loving that Steve Avery commented on my picture when I posted it on Facebook. :)

I'm loving...

That I got to have lunch and go antique shopping with my folks last weekend. They were in town visiting my aunt (my dad's sister), so I met them for lunch one afternoon. We then went to a few antique shops in Waxahachie. It was a lot of fun!

My dad is so adorable in his hat
They had some cool hats at this one shop, but I didn't get one. I almost got this one, I thought it was cute
If this had been an Elvis purse, I would have bought it. But it was a CD holder, and the material wasn't that nice. Maybe it's for the best. Lol
I've seen way too many scary movies- this doll was SO CREEPY. I kept expecting it to turn its head and look at me. I would hate to be in this store at night by myself
I'm loving...

That I went to see the musical Finding Neverland last Friday night. It was AMAZING!! I noticed actor John Davidson's name in the program (he was in several Disney movies I watched as a kid. He also was a game show host for a while). He's a fantastic actor. After the musical, my friend and I went to the stage door and Mr. Davidson was nice enough to sign our programs and take pictures. 

Outside the Winspear Opera House

My friend Mel and I have seen so many musicals/plays together. 
My friend Beks saw on Facebook that I was there and came over to say hi!
Actor John Davidson- such a honor and pleasure to meet him!
I'm loving...

That I cleaned out my closets last Saturday. I spent about about 9 hours cleaning my apartment and was able to donate all of this to the Salvation Army. I'm slowly getting rid of the clutter!

What are YOU loving today?


Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Book Reviews 2017: The Unseen

**All reviews on Randomness With Rachel are done on a five star rating system. The reviews are solely my opinion and no one else's. Randomness With Rachel does not receive any incentives or compensations for reviews.**

The Unseen by Heather Graham

This was one of the earlier books in the Krewe of Hunters series and I have to say, I really enjoyed the earlier books more than the recent ones in the series. This book seemed to draw me in more than the newer ones. There seemed to be more plot depth, a few of the recent ones have been all over the place. 

Since I've read the series out of order, I recognized characters- Jackson Crow, Logan Raintree, and Tyler Montague. I'm a Texas history nerd, so I enjoyed that this one took place in San Antonio and that the author threw in some Texas history facts. Nit picky: when the author was describing the Riverwalk in San Antonio, I felt she made it seem like it was a real river and not a man-made tourist area. But that doesn't take away from the story. That's just me being snobby. :)

I liked the characters Logan and Kelsey, I felt they worked well together. If this series continues, I hope the author gets back some of that early book magic!

Book summary:

I finished this book on July 1, so it goes towards my 40 by 40 challenge.